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20 October 2013 @ 04:38 pm
A Person He Used to Hate [2/2]  

Title: A Person He Used to Hate. Used to.

Chapters: 2/2

Author: yumemirunosekai

Pairing: Kame/Ueda (KameDa),

Rating: PG

Warnings: swearing, slight AU, quotes

Synopsis: "And shall we start from here, the new days? We throw away everything, We are not afraid of anything, We can be sparkling, shining stars" - LINDA

A/N: This is an AU drabble/oneshot, but is based off a collection of quotes from the Gazette, my fave VK band. Why have I suddenly decided to base things and situations on them? Well, Beautiful Deformity os about to be released, so I am super exited. Anyway, this is about the formation of KAT-TUN, but with slight twists here and there. No worries, there will be no het pairings here XD I'm almost done with Chapter 5 of Idiosyncrasy, but I just found that the content might be too offensive, so I'm editing it. Might take awhile, so enjoy this while waiting. I did this in the holidays, another free type, but I didn't think to post it yet until now ^.


Part 1


Kamenashi is sitting there with his stupid, stubbly fingers attached to his iPhone, which is stuck firmly to his ear, and Ueda doesn't have to guess to know who he is talking to by that goddamned goofy smile plastered on his face. "It's Akanishi isn't it." It's a statement rather than a question, and Ueda almost spits when he says it. he wonders when he began to hate Akanishi so much - he was supposed to hate Kamenashi, and not Akanishi - and now it seems like the tables have turned. He feels the familiar red hot anger when Kamenashi looks at him with an offended glare before muttering something into the phone then hanging up.

"Yes, it's Jin."



Ueda bites down hard on his tongue.

"He was just telling me how things were going on with him in America. I think his singles are doing pretty well, and-"

"You honestly think I give two fucks about Akanishi?"

Kamenashi immediately shuts him mouth, lips pulled into a tight line. Every, single, fucking, time. Every time Ueda snaps at him, Kamenashi doesn't retaliate anymore, and this only pisses Ueda off more. He doesn't really understand though, in their junior years, he would have done anything just for Kamenashi to leave him alone, but lately he wanted Kamenashi to bother him; wanted the younger member to smile that annoying smile at him.

"Why do you always do this?"

Ueda snaps back. "Do what? Do what exactly, Kamenashi?"

Kamenashi shrugs. "This." he gestures vaguely at Ueda. "Why do you always… I dunno, pick fights with me?"

"You'd rather I take it out on darling Jin instead?" mocks Ueda, his tone bitter.

Kamenashi blinks weirdly, and Ueda holds his breath. He was on a roll, and there was no stopping him once he wanted to blurt out everything he's been holding back, but he has to, before he blurts out something stupid, like I don't like it when you talk to that traitor, but then again, calling Kamenashi's darling Akanishi 'traitor' might start up another fistfight, and Ueda doesn't think he wants that.

"Why are you bringing Jin into... Are you jealous?"

Ueda is taken aback by this question. What on God's great earth brought that up? "Don't flatter yourself." he replies, but his stance seems to become less agitated, and to his horror, even he can hear the sudden tremble in his tone. "As if I'd ever-" But Ueda has to stop then and there, because there it was. That goofy smile. Only this time, it was him that Kamenashi is smiling at.


Ueda wonders if Kamenashi really has gotten over Akanishi's departure. If he has, why doesn't he just leave the asshole alone? Let him stew in his ideas of America and just leave him be, but no, Kamenashi has to go out of his way to keep fucking tabs on the latter.

"Kame, why do you still hound Jin?" asks Nakamaru one day.

Ueda stiffens in his seat and glances up at Kamenashi, who doesn't look at Nakamaru, or anyone for that matter. Finally someone asks the question that has been hovering around the group for months.

"You do know he isn't coming back right?"

Kamenashi nods stiffly.

"Well, you have to drop this, Kame-chan. Let's just focus on the new KAT-TUN okay? There's no point in holding on to something that does not come back."

Ueda wholeheartedly agrees with Nakamaru, but refrains from adding his two cents to the conversation at the sight of Kamenashi's face.


It was about time to go on, and Kamenashi is still not found.

They needed to do their best today: their N.M.P tour; there was no Akanishi here to buffer Kamenashi's absence now, so Ueda is sizzling with annoyance when Kamenashi fails to turn up with 5 minutes to spare before the curtain raised.

"Where is Kame?"

"Fuck, we are on in five. Somebody get that selfish a-hole!" Koki yells from across the room, over the staff commotion and general noise.

"Shut up! The audience can hear you!"

"Well, then somebody'd better get Kamenashi and tell him to pull himself together, and stop moping about Bakanishi's absence before I bite his head off!"

Ueda slips off when there is 3 minutes before the curtain rises. It isn't hard to find Kamenashi. Not when you know where to look for him. Ueda arrives at the platforms above the stage, where one could see the vast sea of heads, bopping up and down in the stands. Kamenashi is there alright. He is crouched by the metals barriers, staring down at the sea of uchiwas, a strangely terrified expression on his face.

"What are you doing here." Ueda gets straight to the point. There was no time to beat around the bush. "We are on in 3."

Kamenashi doesn't look up. He just continues to stare at the stands, looking scared and suddenly, very young. Ueda can almost see the scrawny boy with the knobbly legs that he once hated.


When Kamenashi finally does look up, Ueda nearly frowns at the blatant fear scribbled in bold lines across Kamenashi's face. "I can't do it." he whispers. "They are all… I try, but they…. I don't know if they want me, Tat-chan."


"They do want you." Ueda finds himself saying. "You know it."

Kamenashi lets out a strained laugh. "It's because of him. they only like me because he was there. Because of AkaKame. Without him, I'm nothing. I'm nothing and you know it."

"Why do you need him? You have me."

Kamenashi's head swivels around so fast that Ueda is surprised it didn't fly off. He looks at Ueda with those wide, chocolate brown eyes, which grows even wider when Ueda lowers himself until he is level with Kamenashi, leans in, slowly, testing, until he can feel those plump lips he had always thought were so annoying, pressed firmly against his. Ueda doesn't shut his eyes, but stares strongly into Kamenashi's own wider ones. It takes awhile, but then Kamenashi's eyes slide close, and Ueda can feel a small, hardly noticeable smile bloom against his lips.

When Ueda finally pulls away, he suddenly feels gratified upon noticing the pink blooms on Kamenashi's flushed cheeks. Standing up, he dusts his thighs and hold out a hand to Kamenashi. "Come on. I'll be your Jin in his place next to you if you want, so pull yourself together and face the world, just as you did before."

Kamenashi takes Ueda's hand, and Ueda can feel the callouses on it's palm as he heaved Kamenashi to his feet. He lets go, but Kamenashi holds tight, the squeeze making Ueda look at the younger man with raised brows. "What are you doing?"

"I don't want you to be Jin."

Ueda grits his teeth. Of course. What was he thinking? Nobody could take Aka-fucking-nishi's place beside Kamenashi could they? Always, alway-

"I want you to be you, and you already have a place beside me. Always had and always will, so why would you want to take Akanishi's?"

Ueda is too surprised he can only blink. Did Kamenashi just call Jin 'Akanishi'? The smile that threatens to split his face is suppressed, and he can feel his face reddening. "You are a weird one, Kamenashi." says Ueda, shaking his head, and as they hurry back, Kamenashi doesn't release Ueda's hand, and Ueda lets him hold it.


A minute before the curtain rises, and the new KAT-TUN are standing in the dark, waiting for their cue. The audience's cheers are getting louder and louder, and Ueda stays next to Kamenashi, just as he promised. He feels a hand, those familiar stubby fingers take hold of his own, and warm breath tickling his ear. "Kamenashi, what-"

"It's Kame, Tat-chan. Call me Kame."

Then he can feel lips being pressed against his, and this time, his eyes widened.

Kame pulls away just as the curtain rises and the glaring stage lights filter in, nearly blinding Ueda, along with the thunderous cheers of the fans. He can't see yet, the light is too bright, but the hand that holds his is sure and firm, guiding him forwards into the brightness, just as music explodes around him.

Lifting his head, he looks forward to the future, the future of KAT-TUN, and to the many days to come with a person he used to hate.

used to.

"And shall we start from here, the new days?

We throw away everything,

We are not afraid of anything,

We can be sparkling, shining stars" - LINDA

Current Music: LINDA - the GazettE
akame_koi13akame_koi13 on October 20th, 2013 07:37 am (UTC)
It's beautiful, especially the ending. And also funny, how Ueda remains in denial…
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 20th, 2013 11:00 am (UTC)
Thanks for reading this!

I'm really glad you think so! (≧∇≦)
laksmianinditalaksmianindita on October 20th, 2013 08:26 am (UTC)
waa... the ending...
like it... a lot :)
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 20th, 2013 11:01 am (UTC)
Thank you for checking it out!

I've always kinda liked Kame and Ueda's love hate relationship, especially when an Ueda in denial is so cute! <3
tinna116tinna116 on October 20th, 2013 09:11 am (UTC)
I like your writing very much ...
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 20th, 2013 11:02 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much, and thank you for reading! I'm glad you liked it <3333
dorayaki_chandorayaki_chan on October 20th, 2013 02:13 pm (UTC)
Aaaaaw so freaking LOOOOOVEEEEE it :)
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 20th, 2013 06:48 pm (UTC)

Thanks for reading! (=゚ω゚)ノ
yukimahouyukimahou on October 20th, 2013 10:22 pm (UTC)
I really enjoyed this, it was so sweet and cute. Their dynamics were really well written, good job!
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 21st, 2013 09:08 am (UTC)

Thank you so much for reading!

And making my day <333

pinkporcapinkporca on October 21st, 2013 02:42 pm (UTC)
Lovely..Thanks for sharing
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 21st, 2013 05:56 pm (UTC)
Thanks for reading! /w\''''

Forever-Late Girldori_liv on October 22nd, 2013 05:15 pm (UTC)
very nice
i like the play between ueda and kame
and the ending is great :)
yumemirunosekaiyumemirunosekai on October 23rd, 2013 12:01 am (UTC)

thanks for reading! I'm glad you like it! (>///<)